When all of your resolves have failed you, you start to doubt yourself. You tend to lose your main focus. Get tough, they said. Be tough. They start to look ill into you, start to bewilder you. Giving the look. Asking on your perplexed behavior. They just don't understand. It is not your emotional behavior that has gone wrong. It is just not your time, and they need to accept the fact. You have tried your hardest, giving your damn hardest at the wrong time and the wrong places. Every energy you have given is wasted. You just need some time for yourself. You just need to stop trying for some time. They should know they also need to stop pressuring you on your unknown future. You yourself know your best. When in doubt, prostrate. It is where you always gets your motivation.
I root for you. So carpe diem. (: